I use to want to change myself. I use to feel insecure about my inability to be as free and outspoken as others. I use to write in my journals declarations of the new me. I convinced myself that one day I would be so free that people would look up to me. I was young and full of hope, but the problem I had was I thought I had a problem in the first place. I hated that I was so serious and so sensitive. I hated that I wouldn’t share my inner thoughts in a discussion. I really didn’t want to be myself because I thought it was something wrong with me. I wanted to be free of that burden. Once I started accepting myself, I stopped seeing the negative parts of my personality. I stopped trying so hard to change myself. I became free once I decided that I didn’t have to be a certain way to add value.
I knew that writing was my calling at a young age. I started out making goals of becoming an author. “I’m going to be an author by the age of 30”. I was so serious about my goal that when I was a teenager I took a writing workshop with an author name Marita Golden. She has several books, but her memoir Don’t Play in the Sun, really touched me. I like this book so much that I was compelled to reach out to her. I don’t really know if I actually wrote her a letter, but I ended up in an all day Saturday workshop with her and a handful of others. At that time I thought poetry was my thing and I thought I would write a poetry book.
A few weeks ago I started a series titled Life in Kuwait where I talk about different aspects of living in Kuwait. Living here has really opened my eyes to Kuwaiti culture and has really challenged my perspective. I will still share stories about my life in Kuwait, but soon I will be returning to the other side of the world for summer break. That’s just the perks of being a teacher, not bragging, but I am happy. Because of this, I will have a new topic I will write about titled Life Hacks. Aside from my summer excursions, I will share insights I gain that helped me grow.
The other day I read a post called 3 things I like about my personality and the post was real and honest. I really felt where the author was coming from (you can read it here). This lead me to think about ways I can be more honest and more personal in my writing. I am happy for the people who decided to follow me on this journey called life. As I evolve so will my blog.
If you think this is about a person stop here. I don’t want to mislead you. No seriously.