I use to want to change myself. I use to feel insecure about my inability to be as free and outspoken as others. I use to write in my journals declarations of the new me. I convinced myself that one day I would be so free that people would look up to me. I was young and full of hope, but the problem I had was I thought I had a problem in the first place. I hated that I was so serious and so sensitive. I hated that I wouldn’t share my inner thoughts in a discussion. I really didn’t want to be myself because I thought it was something wrong with me. I wanted to be free of that burden. Once I started accepting myself, I stopped seeing the negative parts of my personality. I stopped trying so hard to change myself. I became free once I decided that I didn’t have to be a certain way to add value.
I knew that writing was my calling at a young age. I started out making goals of becoming an author. “I’m going to be an author by the age of 30”. I was so serious about my goal that when I was a teenager I took a writing workshop with an author name Marita Golden. She has several books, but her memoir Don’t Play in the Sun, really touched me. I like this book so much that I was compelled to reach out to her. I don’t really know if I actually wrote her a letter, but I ended up in an all day Saturday workshop with her and a handful of others. At that time I thought poetry was my thing and I thought I would write a poetry book.
Ramadan Kareem is similar to Christmas for Muslims. Minus the Santa Clause, celebrating Jesus’s birth, and giving gifts. Okay, maybe it’s nothing like Christmas, but it relates to Christmas because it is a time when people spend time with their families, give to the poor, and try to be a better person. The purpose is to fast for 30 days as an expression of their devotion to Allah. They fast from sun up to sun down. So depending on where you are in the world hours that you are fasting can be longer or shorter.
A few weeks ago I started a series titled Life in Kuwait where I talk about different aspects of living in Kuwait. Living here has really opened my eyes to Kuwaiti culture and has really challenged my perspective. I will still share stories about my life in Kuwait, but soon I will be returning to the other side of the world for summer break. That’s just the perks of being a teacher, not bragging, but I am happy. Because of this, I will have a new topic I will write about titled Life Hacks. Aside from my summer excursions, I will share insights I gain that helped me grow.
One aspect of living in Kuwait that I find amazing is the lackadaisical, everything will work out attitude. The way people drive on the road like there’s a constant emergency you wouldn’t think this is true. In fact, there are times, more times than not, that you will get hit with Inshallah- meaning lord willing or also we will bring Allah in this because it is not my top priority.
Juxtapose with America’s get it done now by any means necessary mentality and you can spend your time being frustrated. When I first got here, my frustration was always simmering underneath, not too far from boiling over. While I may not be a stickler for time I do appreciate that important matters get dealt with immediately. Getting proper documentation usually takes time, but there is allotted time for these things to get done. It also goes without saying that most professionals get the work done in that allotted time. This was not my experience when trying to get my residency.